Saturday, August 20, 2011

Kindle Journal ~ 8/20/11

Here's a peak into my mental health today. I share it not in seeking for help. I share it only to give others a picture of what my life is like right now.

Whew! Order and space and function!
  • I have a clock with hands that gives order to my time and not just a phone with digits that gives me input. 
  • I have a laundry room in a bathroom instead of a bathroom with a washing machine in it.
  • I have laundry drying on racks instead of clothes hanging around drying.
  • I have a kitchen rug at the sink instead of a towel in front of the sink.
  • I have towels hanging on hooks and repaired racks instead of towels and broken towel racks lying around the bathrooms.
  • I have cans instead of piles waiting to be taken to the kitchen trash.
  • I have scriptures in a central location and a TV that`s less so.
Hmmmm, chaos and opportunities for more order, Faith, and effectiveness . . .
  • I still have piles of books and school supplies and Sunday clothes that need a place to call home.
  • I have appliances with no English or Romanized characters or means for interpreting and understanding how to use them other than trial and error.
  • I am almost completely illiterate and incapable of communicating with anyone outside of my home. I do not even know where to start in making a plan for improvement.
  • I have no reliable, independent means of transportation other than my feet.
  • I have a generous, giving, and happy heart with those outside my home. I have a guilt clouded, impatient heart with my children.
  • I spend a lot of time thinking about what my kids are doing and not enough time thinking about what they are becoming.

1 comment:

Celeste B. said...

I completely understand the part about posting for a journal rather than help. I feel like that often, I just want to report what reality is so that others can learn that others are like them, warts and all.

That would be frustrating to have appliances that are not English. I have another friend in China and their photos of their "bathroom" are basically a squatting hole in the middle of the floor. Eek! That would be an adjustment.

Keep posting! I love reading your experiences.